Master of pretending!

I even can’t remember

when I started to pretend?

Just like an unstable wall on which you can’t relay;

Even can’t touch, knowing it may fall on you;

For long long time

just from the very beginning

I pretended

to have something for lean against;

Not having that truly

Am I master of pretending?

So painful, so bitter.

Have I had a family?

Was I beloved?

Now

Pretending is more painful than not

.

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Now I know the answer.

22.04.2013