Morning dream

It will rain today

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.

.

I woke up with a tight kiss

27.04.2013

SPITZ here-II

SPITZ here

Thorns

“ Flowers are beautiful;

Even the thorns are beautiful;

So the roots must be beautiful too.”

…

But

What about thorns without roots and flowers?

.

.

.

Would you burn them making fire?

01.04.2013

In my heart

Chasing after you on my bike,

touching that cold cheeks,

or looking through hole;

I was seeing my own face

Wanting to warm you up with my heart;

But cold fingers of mine too

Bear them a bit;

I’m putting you in my chest

30.04.2013

Shirokuma II

Shirokuma

Dandelion

I was blowing to make
           blowing to free
           blowing to reach 

To make them 

as bright as bubbles

to free them 
as soft as dandelions 

desiring for them to reach you 
as wishful as rainbow 

I was blowing bubbles
                            dandelions
                            rainbow

I was thinking about you.


19.04.2013

Mysterious rocks

Wind-like words
whispering jokes 

Behind rock lips, 

sometimes ocean, 
sometimes cave. 
Wide field
fog and dust. 

Between rocks and buffeting waves 
soft candy words  
dancing petals.

30.04.2013

Don't love you

. . .

So I don’t love that voice;
How can I love that I can’t hear completely?

. . .

So I don’t love your words;
I even can’t find out how they related!

. . .

So I don’t love that eyes;
How can I love the sky which I never dreamed about?

. . .

So I don’t love your songs;
How can I love endless things?

. . .

So I don’t love that thoughts;
How can I love them if I couldn’t act childishly

. . .

But I love you!
and I will try to hear, 
                              find
                              reach
                              understand
                              and have you

So I’m going to love you again!

14.04.2013

Candy thorn!

Don’t touch it!
But taste!

Candy thorn!
I feel sweetness in my mouth, 
not daring to swallow

Candy thorn! 
Your words on my lips 
I’m hearing that voice

27.04.2013

Emerald

Dark and bright

your eyes were green

my hands were green

Nearby leaves,

light is green;

life is green.

22.04.2013

Up to the winter

Hairy leaves

dreaming about staying for your birthday!

22.04.2013

I had lost something

Some feelings

Feeling of “not wanting to lose someone”

I lost it.

I’m not even sure that I had it,
but I think I lost it somewhere, sometime, somehow in my life.

Feeling of “not wanting to lose someone”.

06.03.2013

Spitz since 1987

Spitz members

Sz 02

I hate myself !

I have your time !

I feel your heart !

I can hear your voice !

Know your mind !

I still have that sea-blue wool which you made.

Still receiving your letters.

But even then

every bothersome time,

when I’m tired of myself,

when I cry,

I feel I hate you

because you left me behind.

So

I hate myself!

27.02.2013

Me

There is a certain capability for one person.

I found every nook and cranny of myself.

There is no endless person,

but

you would stay not for infinity of mine.

You could stay in a small room

with a light door and bright window.

I’m not that one

So it’s OK to leave me.

Even I myself can’t stay here!

 

I feel empty inside.

In this emptiness,

I just feel your absence.

27.02.2013

I didn’t know

I didn’t know the blue one:
Clouds or sky?

I didn’t know the black one:
Night or shadow?

I didn’t know which one is bright:
Day or sun?

I didn’t know color of the earth,
color of the face.

I didn’t know how our home was look like?
How to draw the night sky or a river?
I was worry about fishes.

Ashamed if you would find out about this all!

I know now
and not worry, not shameful, but
...
here is no one who would draw with me anymore.

27.02.2013

Willow in Sorata

Picture from : www.fotopedia.com

Willow

Line by line
Form in form
Shadow in shadow

Brightness in brightness 

In your shade,
Mirror in mirror

Leaves are not the same
Shapes are not the same

Wind is joking;
Sun is laughing 

Scattering flies,
passing clouds,
ground blotted.
Silence of spring's afternoon. 

From among my fingers,
sun was orange; 
Staring at it,
things are yellow, whites are blue. 

I’m green as you are in sun; 

A whispered smile passed your lips. 


At spring’s afternoon,
blowing hair met eyelash ends. 

22.04.2013

Winter love

I can’t fall in love in spring

I heard a voice while hibernating

I woke up with that, so I can’t fall in love;

Because I am in

Wintry love; Blue love.



02.04.2013

I lied!

I lied when I said: I will always love you!

I can’t even love myself all the time.

I lied when I said: I won’t forget you!

I may forget about breathing in every minute.

 

I lied when I said: I hate you!

I can’t hate the sun.

I lied when I said: I’m waiting for unexpected moments

Because I’m searching for them in your eyes, your words, movements.

 

I lied when I said I’m writing a song 

I’m just recalling you in other words.

I’m redrawing sunrise and sunset together.

I’m just reliving all lover’s moments

together with you.
 

26.03.2013

 

Forest of "Garbera"

Forest

night

rain

tearful eyes; nothing falls

loneliness

fear

locked lips

hard to breath

Can’t even close my eyes;

not to showing you inside

Feeling cold;

not daring to say

or to move

I’m lost;

but don’t want it to end

Staying with this song up to the morning

until light’s pouring

Power of this feelings

will become my strength

Takes my everything all at once

then gives them back to me little by little

* Garbera: Gerbera - one of the songs of Spitz
13.05.2013

Finding a "hikari"*

In order to find a “hikari” I’m going to darkness.

Leave the things which I can see behind,

to find that I can’t.

I’m going to leave myself 

looking for you.

26.03.2013

Jpn.* light

Echo

I would become eternal

If I could touch your voice

Or swallow those words.

Thoughts,

warmth,

beats,

breath,

sights,

soul,

are eternal.

Can I touch that voice?

10.03.2013

About you!

I know that I’m dreaming now 
but I’m speaking loudly with anyone about anything
trying not to believe it

It’s sweeter than I imagined.

01.04.2013